And I failed. Pretty much.
I feel terrible.
Sigh. Self-pity not working, eh? Well, I’ll write a short posts anyway, becuase that’s what I do when I’m depressed.
I shouldn’t feel that bad though. It was exam month after all. Studying for exams and then giving the exams themselves is perhaps the most tedious job in the entire universe.
But in the end, my education comes first. Writing plays a huge part in my life, and NaNo did mean a lot to me, especially this was my first. I was ready to give it a go with boundless zeal and energy. And that was when I realized something: we got our results in December…and with horror I realized that our exams were in November, and it was written in my destiny to fail.
A novel. That I planned to write in a month. Sure, bring it on.
But in the end, the book’s not becoming a bestseller. It’s far from being seen by humans, let alone publishers 😉 It’s only the first draft, the first many many many revisions. I can try NaNo again next year. And the year after that. And so on. But I won’t get to repeat 8th grade again. The results stay with me, and eventually affect my O levels.
Which is why I put my studies first and eventually did not meet my (puny) wordcount. But heck, my gloominess is gone, and I’m relatively less depressed – now that I’ve faced why I couldn’t.
If you’re wondering why I had been wiped off the face of the addictive virtual void also known to us more commonly as the internet, I’m so sorry.
Since you all know why I was absent, know I still won’t be posting for probably a week more. So until then, my blog continues it’s hiatus 😦
I’m halfway through City of Heavenly Fire. IT’S EPIC SO FAR. Post coming after my hiatus so YAY :3 How many of you like TMI? How was NaNoWriMo? Lastly, what should I read next?
Stay fab, lovely blogglings ^^